sad alex

this song child of mine, called "out of focus", is particularly special because it represented a much-needed return to form for me at a very difficult time. music creators can probably relate to the idea that your creative process evolves drastically as you become deeper enveloped by the industry. although i can stay busy with sessions every day sometimes weeks will go by and i"ll realize i haven"t touched a piano once. songwriting was born as a sacred, solo activity for me: sitting, emoting at the piano, having no idea what i was doing. so although i am grateful that now i can create a song in a multitude of ways, i can start burning out or feeling inexplicably lost if i spend too much time away from the form that brought me to love this expression in the first place. fuel that with a tasty breakup, and this song had everything i needed. i sat, and wrote this top to bottom at the piano, no pre-conceived concept, or melody, or worry if the chorus was "lifting" enough, or if i was being original enough... just did what my instincts wanted to do. i wrote this about feeling pushed away by a person, but as i listen to it now it takes on a new meaning feeling often shoved aside with my career as well. she"s truly one of my favorites, and i hope you it makes you feel something