DiMatteo's Editions

Be Fearless  
You are  
Never Alone  
6: nso                  

I find myself still affected with so much of the 
struggles throughout life growing up as a kid.  
Being on meds being prescribed most meds like Adderall, concerta, Ritalin. I was pretty much a zombie that couldn"t feel. I remember wanting to die. 

I feel like a good portion of my life was on autopilot, I was not myself,  
I felt alone. Drawing was my only escape, I was able to tap into myself, let my imagination run wild.

I"d get in trouble for it everywhere and be judged. I"d draw during class, Church, on the bus. People at church said my art was evil, that drawing dragons/monsters were demons. Everything as a kid that I did was always a problem for people.

why was I separated from all the students in class?  
why did I always have a counselor sitting in with me in school  
I started becoming so self aware about myself  
Self conscious, feeling different, weird, anti social, anxious. 

I knew I was just different from the others around me. I just was a boy with an imagination and a need to create. 
I am still that boy.