Lucid Dreaming

depression is one hell of a drug. i didn't trust anyone for a very long time.

having dated someone, finding out they have leukemia and then them pass away shortly afterwards made me so angry at the world.

i felt guilt
i felt shame
sadness
pain

i didn't want to be around anyone. i didn't want to be with anyone. i didn't want to feel anything.

i guess you could say i felt jaded.

after years of therapy, i eventually learned how to live with this loss.  i learned how to move forward.

you never really defeat your demons, you just learn how to live with them.