Kingyo in the Park

Lately, I've been contemplating finding a job, and the feeling of confusion has returned. But compared to two years ago, it seems that I have some direction. However, I feel that this decision will affect the direction of my life (maybe not so severe, I'm just used to scaring myself). I've seen too many elders who, due to different choices, have presented different states after reaching a certain age. I always feel that taking a wrong step will lead to a big problem. Who knows?